40 Days to Awesome: Day 1

Food:

I definitely will have to adjust my food intake throughout the day. Any recommendations or advice would be appreciated.

Breakfast:

Bowl of oatmeal

Lunch:

Dinner:

8 oz. Ribeye, Steamed Asparagus, and Balsamic reduced onions.

Exercise:

Weights: 50 lb. shoulder presses, 25 lb. bicep curls., 15 lb. triceps curls

Cardio: flat tires on the bike to riding was a no go. 

Work:

Lessons finished, and books read.

Play:

Watching Skyline and it is super cheezy. You can tell that it was rushed into production to beat Battle:Los Angeles. I can’t get over the fact that Turk from Scrubs is in it. It’s a really cliche’d movie with rushed effects. 

theanthemsoftime:

GPOYW: The here is proof I’m doing something edition followed by the I just got my butt handed to me edition

and then I jacked my feet up and quit…. I needed these reminders…

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1 year anniversary….(June goals)

I started this whole journey almost a year ago to the day. I had decided after several months of feeling like complete crap that I was tired of the way I was living. Changes were things that I knew that I needed to do and that came quite naturally. I cut out sodas, spent as much time as I could outside, never passed up an opportunity for physical activity, and ate 3 meals a day. I made sure I ate breakfast first thing when I woke up to ensure that my metabolism stayed moving, and found time to de-stress in the morning. I a single month I tore off almost 40 pounds, and for the last year I’ve been maintaining that weight loss. 

It hasn’t been an easy year. I’ve lost almost all of my close friends due to life just happening and them having to move away. I’ve become isolated and feel alone much of the time. This has had a damaging effect on my mental well being. I have struggled with money problems and have found myself highly unmotivated in my work. I have become apathetic towards life because I feel like I am trapped. Trapped in a cage of standards that others set, and that I can never break free from. I don’t feel like I can be myself. Then I encountered this community of people here on Tumblr back in February. I had slowly started following a few blogs here and there, but I had a new found resurgence in my health. However, life kicked me in the tenders a few more times and left me maintaining my current weight.

I’m tired again. Tired of not being able to do what others can, tired of carrying around a whole other person (both physically in weight and the fake self I’m expected to maintain), and tired of being miserable. I’m ready to become the man that I know I am and long to be inside. I made the biggest changes in my life last june and I’m ready to do the same again this June. Over the course of this month, I hope to eat better by cutting sugars, upping the amount of whole and natural foods, working hard with low impact exercise, and drinking half my body weight in ounces of water each day. This along with great sleeping habits and taking nutritional supplements will hopefully gain me the same results that I turned out last year. If this is the case, I will be looking at dropping my weight down close to 300 lb. by the end of the month. This morning I weighed 344 lb (a loss of 2 for the week). 

Thank you all for your patience and support, but know that I will need more encouragement as the month goes on to prevent any slipping into older habits. I love you guys and thanks for the inspiration that you provide!

Deeper reasons for improving my health…

My mom had to go to the doctor yesterday. Her blood pressure was 180/100. They have kept her on a constant cycle of medication to keep her blood pressure down but nothing has really seemed to work. The doctor told her yesterday that her weight has alot to do with this and that she needs to have a better dietary plan. I’ve been telling her this for almost a year. She maintains that she should be able to eat whatever she wants because her parents did the same thing and they were “fine”. She forgets that her father lost his legs to a combination of neuropathy and diabetes, and that her mother had multiple battles with cancer. 

I have to show her that a healthy diet and regular exercise pay off. Right now I struggle with what Dave Ramsey calls the “Powdered Butt Syndrome”. If someone has powdered your butt, they don’t value your opinion. I have to transform myself so that I can inspire my mother to transform herself. Deeper than that I don’t want to struggle with the medical problems that my mother is facing now. I want to live a happy and healthy life, and I want her to be around for that too. I just wish she would be willing to give all this a try.

WIW: March 30, 2011

The “WHY AM I SURPRISED EDITION”

Peak weight: 379 lbs. (May 2010)

Starting weight: 344 lbs.

Previous weight: 339 lbs.

Current weight:339 lbs.

Weekly loss: 0 lbs.

Overall loss: 40 lbs.

Hurddle 1: 299 lbs.

Hurddle 2: 250 lbs.

Hurddle 3: 200 lbs.

Goal weight: 185 lbs.

Again, it seems like i’m stuck in this zone. I’m just happy that after a week of binge eating that I’m still in  this reasonable area. The thing is that even with my binge eating I maintained a reasonable caloric intake of around 2000 calories. However, the majority of those calories came from sugar and grains which I am beginning to think is slowing my progress. I’m planning on beginning the Paleo diet on Monday and I’ll be interested to see how that will change my energy levels and ability to lose. I’m just so ready to be at 300 lb. that I wanna break stuff every time I step on the scale and it just reads the same. Break stuff. Yep, I’m fed up. 

WIW: March 23, 2011

Peak weight: 379 lbs. (May 2010)

Starting weight: 344 lbs.

Previous weight: 338 lbs.

Current weight:339 lbs.

Weekly loss:+1 lbs.

Overall loss: 40 lbs.

Hurddle 1: 299 lbs.

Hurddle 2: 250 lbs.

Hurddle 3: 200 lbs.

Goal weight: 185 lbs.

Again,I’m pretty sure that I’m on a plateau. I’ve been sick this past a few days this last week, and I was sure that was going to have a greater impact on my weight loss. I’ve also been watching my caloric intake which is staying right around 2000 calories a day. However, I have had a few outings this week where I ate at places like McDonalds, a buffet, and other places like them. I think that those all had a major impact on my weight loss. In addition, I didn’t get much exercise in on the days that I was feeling rough. I’m just so ready to drop again, and I don’t know what is holding me back from breaking through. I guess I just have to dig a little deeper and come up with something that is going to push me over the edge. 

Where I was to who I am…

I started a blog in general almost a year ago, and when I began I had no clue what would become of it. I had reached a breaking point in my life when I saw my weight balloon to what I thought was 343 lbs at the time. It was in actuality more in the realm of 380 lbs. I was miserable. I couldn’t move, couldn’t breath, stayed depressed, slept really weird hours, and found myself completely out of place. The “fat boy” clothes that I had were even to the point that they were no fitting anymore. I realized in that moment of fear that I had to do something or I would be dead at the age of 35. That is when I began my first major push to lose a substantial amount of weight, and at least get to feeling better. 

41 pounds and a year later, I find myself still desiring to do better. The main difference is that I now have an amazing support community behind me. I have people who desire to become healthy, and as a result seek out those who want the same. They understand the struggles of taking a chunk of unhealthy flesh and shaping into something more. They get the concept of breaking down mental barriers on a daily basis. They encourage you to do those things that you need to do daily, and support you to stay strong when you don’t. THEY ARE INSPIRATION. Constantly working to better themselves, but understanding that they serve others through their own journey. They find the beauty in all things, demand the strength in all things, and rejoice at each individuals victory. Whether it is someone who has just started this journey or someone who has reached their physical pinnacle, the support and encouraging words will be there. I have found people here who I can laugh with, seek advice from, and talk heath and life with. At the same time, I find that I have a greater feeling of responsibility to support those same people. This is why I love the FITBLR community.

This will be my 500th post on this blog. I admit that I still have a long way to go from where I am, but I’m proud to know that I’m traveling with those who are caring, supportive, encouraging, strong, and determined. You all are amazing. To my followers who are not part of this community, I want you to know how much I appreciate you as well. You all are my friends, family, and spiritual brothers and sisters, and the support that many of you have given me individually is amazing. I hope that you can appreciate my attempt to improve myself, and urge me to continue when you see me in  person. I never realized the effect that I have on many of you, and the connections that I would make to those who I have lost contact with over the years. You have made me what I am today, and I thank you for that. 

Again. THANK YOU.

WIW: March 9, 2011

Peak weight: 379 lbs. (May 2010)

Starting weight: 344 lbs.

Previous weight: 336 lbs.

Current weight:338 lbs.

Weekly loss:+2 lbs.

Overall loss: 41 lbs.

Hurddle 1: 299 lbs.

Hurddle 2: 250 lbs.

Hurddle 3: 200 lbs.

Goal weight: 185 lbs.

I stay up way too late, and I really don’t have a reason to do so. I have nothing that I need to be doing that late, and I tend to eat things that i don’t need when i’m up that late. I’m glad I’ve given peanut butter up for Lent. I believe that this is where a majority of my excess caloric intake has come from this week. I also have to be more cautious about eating out. I have let myself slip when it comes to my discipline in eating out. That is partly due to the fact that I haven’t kept the appropriate groceries out of the house. Exercise is up this week, but I don’t think that my gain has come from muscle. I must start going to bed earlier, get more rest, and take advantage of my time to exercise. So yeah, here is to three weeks with a gain….

FOR THE NEXT 30 DAYS…

I have a daily date with Jillian Michaels… She’s gonna kick my tail… I know it…

30 SHRED IN EFFECT!

SMILE FRIDAY  FOR YA PUNK SELF!!!

SMILE FRIDAY  FOR YA PUNK SELF!!!